When I first got into a relationship with God, I began to listen to this one Preacher. I was so excited at the time and I could immediately feel a difference in my life after accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
This particular girl was instrumental in my acceptance and she began preaching shortly after she got married. She was seemingly so perfect. Her devotions were perfect, her prayers were perfect. Her marriage, her IG, her clothes, her hair.. you get the picture. I legit thought that's what a Christian girl is supposed to be. Unfortunately, her message (no matter the way she phrased it) was a continuous idea that if it's when you are perfect and your "i"s are dotted and "T"s crossed, THAT'S when God will love you and bless you.
BUUTTT...see at the time, my life looked like a HOT MESS! And I came to Him BECAUSE I didn't know how to change it.
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So, there was no way I could have my "I"s dotted and "T"s crossed. Thankfully, not too long after, I learned that God was not intimidated by my mess. That whatever was going to change in my life was not going to be because of me and my intense effort to impress Him.
"But HE said to me, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness". So no I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. - 2 Corinthians 12:8